Sitting…

How often do you hear yourself or others say “if only I had more time?” It’s frequently followed by all the things they want to do like meditation, exercise, projects, reading etc. I certainly have heard these words from my own mouth on many occasions.

One of the “side effects” of having a fractured foot was that all of a sudden I was given the gift of time. In an instant I found myself with hours to sit and do all of the things I always said I wanted to do if I had more time. I thought to myself – okay, there’s the blessing in this. However, guess what I quickly discovered…my initial experience was to feel really uncomfortable and not like it at all! The reason? I discovered quickly that when you are running around all the time being busy doing things it is a perfect way to keep your mind very “occupied”. When I found myself with plenty of time sitting I began to actually hear my own thoughts. It was amazing to me to realize just how my “busyness” could keep me from going deep into my own thoughts. Even more surprising was how incredibly uncomfortable and unfamiliar it felt. I found myself feeling so many different emotions. At first I occupied myself with how much I didn’t like the situation and having a really big pity party for myself. When that got old, even to me, I felt anxious and overwhelmed with the knowledge that I literally couldn’t run away to distract myself.

Eventually though I began to think of my mind like a snow globe. When it is shaken and the snow bits flurry all around you can’t see what is inside it. If you place it down and let it sit, slowly the particles drift down and reveal the structure inside. As I had no choice but to sit with the dancing thought particles in my mind they slowly started to settle down and I found myself being reacquainted with parts that had become hidden by the constant movement. I reconnected on a stronger level with my “inner voice” and realized that it was actually comforting in many ways. It was almost like meeting up with an old friend.

While I still can’t wholeheartedly say that I’m happy that I fractured my foot, I can sincerely say that I am grateful that I have had the opportunity to re-connect with me and to truly understand the importance of routinely taking time to allow the snow globe of my mind to settle and reveal itself.

I urge you, in the busyness of life, to make it a point to take moments to let your snow globe settle. You will be amazed to see the positive effect it will have on your life!

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